Category Archives: Poems

Internal freezing burn of the cold

Eternal suffering of flames from Hell

How can one person know both sides of a coin

From experiences that make him feel big and small

Split his mind until it was beyond repair

Until he too felt like both sides a coin

Two sides who never agree

Internal Strife

Eternal Suffering

Just cuz I am incomplete 

Does not mean i cant compete

It may make me look stupid

Until what i do is what i did

So i just gotta get good kid

Use my time to practice

Til One day Im cracked at this

Working to become relevant 

I gotta get big, be smart, like an elephant 

Not exactly sure what to serve so i created a platter

Whats the topic, which words do you deserve, Does it even matter?

I only do whatever I like

Its up to you if you want a bite

Just know my bare minimum is at least alright

Act soon else there wont be none left

For this even fat people become quite deft

Probably feelin lucky if you actually listened

it was hardcore, everyone rushed this mission

The entire thing was like a war got waged

Precisely the type of spot id set my stage

Thinking how can i work in such chaos

The war is for me, Im the raid boss

I am the reason for it getting hectic

A million to one, I wont ever regret it

Not one to wallow in defeat

for defeat is a streak i do not wish to repeat 

You know, part of me has a sincere obsession
One that may lead to a heartfelt confession
For I wish to be your greatest possession
Love so great it gives me a sense of direction

By you, I wouldn’t mind being abused
For you, I wouldn’t mind being used
I know you wouldn’t push past my limits
Its just the way that we hit it

Not that we have to share details
About the ways you like to be railed
It’ll be our dirty little secrets
Ones I’m sure we wont forget

I’d rather peer into your mind
Look closer inside every time
As it deepens our connection
Giving us a bit of tension

I want us to unravel
Be each other’s chapel
I only wish for it to become our chapter
As we work towards a happily ever after

You are my greatest obsession
Though I regret, no such thing as a confession
I’m not yet strong enough for such a pure connection
I can not do this yet for my own protection

I wish that for me, you would wait
I hope that you think of me as great
You are everything I could ever want
You are the greatest thing I’d be able to flaunt

I am not calling you out to be an object
I just don’t want you to object
Sadly it’s probably only my dream
For us to be a special kind of team

We are my greatest obsession
A better me who is worth this kind of connection
One that can offer us some sort of protection
I may not be yours, but you are my direction

Warmth is our addiction
We need it to survive
Whatever gives us that feeling
Whatever we have made our flame

We go back to it all the time
Regardless of good or bad
We allow it to grow
Though the growth can be dangerous

Even too much good can be bad
But too much bad is worse
For unlike good it takes root
Poisons for eons to come

Even now we need it
Without it, who would feel alive
Without that warmth, the flame
we’d all just be cold, alone in the dark

I am a race with no lines
Pieces that do not make a whole
A flame that provides no warmth
A light that beckons darkness

I try to be complete
To be not this but much more
A fragment of who I am
So small it doesn’t even feel like me

i am a house that doesn’t feel like home
A phone with no screen
Heat when there is no longer cold
Life, at least how it feels near the end

Will I ever be finished
Is it even worth trying
Every piece brings more
It hurts to not be complete

Worries always linger
Pain never dulls
So how am I supposed to go forward
When it feels like Death at the door

The anxiety slowly transforms to panic
Life itself feels like its about to collapse
Anxiety only grows
Life seems to just turn grey

Self esteem fades
Mental takes a decline
How can I be sure the end is worth it
When each step is filled with despair

You got this, is what they say
I’m already doing my best
Limit is almost hit
Hope out of reach

I happen to think just one thing
This pain means I’m heading the right way
It may hurt now but that’s healing
Its not a bandaid, its self surgery

How aware are you
Do you constantly think back?
Have you ever thought backwards?
Not sure how, then I’ll show you

You remember the nights up all alone
Knife, pills, whatever you could get in hand
Only thing pulling you back is a simple thought
How will everyone else feel in the end

You think of people mourning
Those wishing you had never gone
But lemme sincerely ask you why
Why do you think this as you sit alone

Isn’t this what you hope for and dread?
Why’d  they only show up after then
Aren’t you just hoping they care at least a little bit
Just a show that every thought can be flipped

Renditions of life’s final act
Ode to the joy of death
Yearning for the better days
Gloomy days are all that came
Black thoughts filled my mind
Inflicting peace on my arms
Vexed by peace, I continued too far

I look to the skies
Its filled with horrors and sorrow
The darkness overwhelms
Infinitely growing, infinitely devouring
As sources of light disappear in time
Some unleashing a final show of light
Others joining, going from light to dark
They never even get close to even
Dark has no rules thus no limits
Light must fade, as the stars have written
Proof the universe also wishes for our downfall
A proven method of attack that works on any
Give them a shred of hope that seems strong
Then give them despair to show them they are wrong
It crushes spirits and if not then they do it again
For light is destined to end one of two ways
as a noble sacrifice for the cause
Or an enemy who destroys any and all

I do not simply wish to die
Its not a matter of disappearing
I wish I never existed
That way there’d be no regrets
Not a person to be mourned
Nor to have made any mistakes
Just a matter of never have been
The best way to just be gone
Painlessly and unnoticed
Just to keep their hearts safe