Im filled with regret

Why did i fail that day

I think of another attempt

Why do i choose to stay

It went all black

But sadly it didnt stay that way

I didn’t want to come back

I wanted to give my all away

It pierced my will

Did so with such ease

Not quite enough to kill

Though that would leave me at peace

The dark, the light, the pain within

Its hard to imagine how Id ever win

I have no purpose,  nor any desires

have no worth, cant even picture going higher 

Im done with it, My spirits so beat

Past the point, not sure Ill ever feel complete

Like a hole, im feeling so empty

I wish to be whole, live quite soulfully