Category Archives: Poems

Worries always linger
Pain never dulls
So how am I supposed to go forward
When it feels like Death at the door

The anxiety slowly transforms to panic
Life itself feels like its about to collapse
Anxiety only grows
Life seems to just turn grey

Self esteem fades
Mental takes a decline
How can I be sure the end is worth it
When each step is filled with despair

You got this, is what they say
I’m already doing my best
Limit is almost hit
Hope out of reach

I happen to think just one thing
This pain means I’m heading the right way
It may hurt now but that’s healing
Its not a bandaid, its self surgery

How aware are you
Do you constantly think back?
Have you ever thought backwards?
Not sure how, then I’ll show you

You remember the nights up all alone
Knife, pills, whatever you could get in hand
Only thing pulling you back is a simple thought
How will everyone else feel in the end

You think of people mourning
Those wishing you had never gone
But lemme sincerely ask you why
Why do you think this as you sit alone

Isn’t this what you hope for and dread?
Why’d  they only show up after then
Aren’t you just hoping they care at least a little bit
Just a show that every thought can be flipped

Renditions of life’s final act
Ode to the joy of death
Yearning for the better days
Gloomy days are all that came
Black thoughts filled my mind
Inflicting peace on my arms
Vexed by peace, I continued too far

I look to the skies
Its filled with horrors and sorrow
The darkness overwhelms
Infinitely growing, infinitely devouring
As sources of light disappear in time
Some unleashing a final show of light
Others joining, going from light to dark
They never even get close to even
Dark has no rules thus no limits
Light must fade, as the stars have written
Proof the universe also wishes for our downfall
A proven method of attack that works on any
Give them a shred of hope that seems strong
Then give them despair to show them they are wrong
It crushes spirits and if not then they do it again
For light is destined to end one of two ways
as a noble sacrifice for the cause
Or an enemy who destroys any and all

I do not simply wish to die
Its not a matter of disappearing
I wish I never existed
That way there’d be no regrets
Not a person to be mourned
Nor to have made any mistakes
Just a matter of never have been
The best way to just be gone
Painlessly and unnoticed
Just to keep their hearts safe

Why have the days grown so grey
Even their length has seemed to fade
More and more people close off their heart
Thinking they should have done so from the start
But I happen to disagree
It shouldn’t be closed off to these degrees
Caring gives off a sense of being intrusive
When in reality, you are just being inclusive
The act of doing something kind
Is something people do mind
Which kinda sucks when someone’s life is on the line
You’d think their life is more important so its fine
I stand for those who continue to act
We are the ones with our minds intact
If you see someone who is down
Be kind, it can turn their day around
For if we are all lights and lifts
No-one would fall into dark rifts

When darkness encroaches your heart
What is it that sets you apart
I find peace in what I worship
But if it wasn’t for this, man, Id be eating shit
So can you not see what it means to me
Just be happy, your smile, it what sets me free
I may not be my own priority
But I am no fool, I’m not disorderly
I just have a unique viewpoint you see
Im just against this type of mentality
The one where you must be a the top
This is the idea that spreads but I wish it would stop
you always have to come first
I think that idea is the worst
Don’t be confused, I do understand the lesson
It really helps to avoid being reliant and falling into a depression
Every single one of us is unique, there is no only way
Your heart wants something different, normality shouldn’t make you stray
You don’t have to be your own source of peace
As long as it can’t be lost and puts you at ease
I chose my bonds, I made them myself
People are what I love, I hate being by myself
Its like a blacksmith, we both had things to forge
We worked it the best we could, 1 chance, it cant be reforged
So I do my best, give it all I got
I worry, everything is getting second thoughts
Though I trust in what I believe
My bonds wouldn’t just let me be
I do everything I can to make them strong
How on earth is that possibly wrong
For when they rise, they open up the sky
They gave me a path so I too could fly
So when you feel your life is really down
at wits end wishing to drown
It only takes one thing to turn it around