I lay in solitude so confused
unable to distinguish my mind
How is it possible that I dont think like other guys
Why am I so different, why?
A woman’s best friend kind of guy
Yet sometimes it feels a woman inside a guy
Confidence in masculinity
Or just a lot of femininity
Neither here nor there, I cry
Unsure who I even am or what
It stings beyond compare
Being lost in my own mind
Kind yet vile, selfish and selfless
Contradictions all the way through
Half of me lost, other part missing
As I wander, looking to be complete
The eyes i see, filled with disgust
What part of me is so wretched
The aura of being so heavily judged
Why is being me such a negative
How can i move forward
When walls just block my way
How can i climb up
When life pushes down and away
How can I see forward
When only darkness is ahead
How can I look up
When im down on the floor
It takes courage
Thats all they tell you anymore
Bravery and confidence
Ive lost it so long ago
Be yourself, only you can be you
Why be me, all I know how to do is lose
You are worth it, you are great
Then why does it hurt so bad i wish to end my fate?
MJ's Mind 